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  • Technical log, MiLi Review and Black Ops 2 TOMORROW!

    TECHNICAL LOG

    The plans for today was mainly my thoughts. I spoke to John again over Skype showing visuals of the proposed project. It looked like a very good start for a mock up. Made me think that I should start developing something as well.

    Since I will be doing nothing but backend work, I will need to design the database model keeping it efficient to avoid breaking the server. 

    I’ve spent this Sunday just having the design in my head and whether there are any other tables I need to add before inserting into the database using MySQL. I’ll draw out the design onto paper tonight and see if I am missing anything…

    Unfortunately I could not do any work tonight since I was helping Tim do some Java. I have not touched Java programming since university but it sure felt good to type some on this environment again. Makes me feel like I should open a project on this platform… Lets see…

    That was too technical huh? I will end this blog with a review and a game…

    MiLi Review

    This gorgeous little gadget is a practical charger. It gives the user the ability to carry around this small object so that if ever your phone runs out of battery life, you can charge it with this. It runs on a chargeable battery giving the capability to charge this thing with a USB if the battery dies!


    It supports iPhone, many android phones serving the microUSB, Blackberry and many other devices!

    Paying £25 is the amount that came out from my finance but great investment… 


    Call of Duty: Black Ops 2

    So the game is finally being released tomorrow! I made my order yesterday on http://www.shopto.net! The game should be delivered tomorrow so I will definitely book a gaming evening and write all about it!

    I’ve tried this game in Sydney, Australia at the EB Expo but only the multiplayer experience.
    Although I end up dying in this game due to the tight spaces, I’m sure I’ll do better campaign mode!

    Looking forward to it!! 🙂


    SUMMARY

    There was so much tech, programming and game talk in this post and a expect a bit more tomorrow!

    See you tomorrow! 🙂

  • The past 3 days were amazing!

    Thursday 9th November 2012

    Good night for social…


    Work ended… And I have finally gone out to meet my friend, Kirsty.
    Her birthday passed a while ago but I bought her a few gifts for it and usually, I am not one to buy gifts but I since she and I have gaming in common, I just knew what must be bought!! But I think I may have went overboard…

    I made her wait since I finish later than her so I needed to rush out of work and be quick! Hate making people wait and yet I do it every time! Need to improve that some day… 

    I got out the underground and I receive a text indicating she will be waiting at HMV in Trocadero… 

    I jumped into HMV and as soon I walked in, I knew where she’d be standing without calling her. I marched straight to the gaming section and there she was, looking at the PS3 games!! Surprised? Not for me…

    So we stood for a minute to decide where to eat and we decided China town… I was holding quite the big bag so when we got to the restaurant, I passed over the bag of goodies. She was over the moon when she saw her gifts!

    It feels great to make someone smile the way she did! Awesome!

    So after our meal, we sat and spoke for a while about games and stuff. Then we spoke about my change of lifestyle… And what she’s been up to and all. Great to just sit and talk… Although we did have quite a few disruptions from the waiter coming back and forth checking if we ate all our food… Nice guy… We tipped him in the end! And he tipped us back by giving us a chupa chups lollypop each!

    We headed back to Charing Cross station and then we left it at that. She went home and I was standing in Charing Cross station realising that I need to catch a train to London Bridge because I was going to go meet Lyndsey…


    LONDON BRIDGE

    I got to London Bridge but I was 30 minutes early! So I thought I’d grab a coffee, sit on a random platform and relax.

    During this waiting period, it did allow me to review on how things are going with my life. I can see that it is going very well and although it is a little hard to make decisions, I decided something but I will not announce it here… It’s just too global…

    So she arrives but I made her play a game… I told her to find me at London Bridge but all she had to do was search on Platform 5… She lost as she only briefly looked around… So I had to stand up and reveal myself! 
    We had to meet Sean (her boyfriend) to drop off his gloves and scarf. So we met him briefly and we sat for a few minutes to talk for a bit and then he had to shoot off for the train… So there was just Lyndsey and I again… We just spoke for a while, walked towards her house and grabbed the bus.

    Not a very long night but nonetheless was very nice to see Lyndsey again as it has been a while since I last saw her…


    Friday 10th November 2012

    Long night! 

    This night initiated with a drink with my colleagues. So we got to stand around downing a good 3 double JD and cokes… Or was it 4? Well, one way or another, I was heavily tipsy!

    We spoke about business, we spoke about what we will be doing for Christmas… The night didn’t last for long but I was more or less done since Karjun and Lyndsey were just messaging me indicating that they are going to be at London Bridge soon. We all left the pub to catch the train back to where ever we came from…

    Arriving at London Bridge, I was given a surprised welcome with Sean jumping me from the back while I was about to call Karjun thinking I was about to get mugged followed by Lyndsey just laughing her arse off.

    Mmmmmmm… Fat…
    Karjun came by car so we was looking for him parked up in a corner… So first thing we did was drive Sean home all the way in Croydon. After a whole episode of karaoke singing in the car, a few dance moves and shouting, we arrived at Sean’s house. Dropped him off and look what we decide to go eat… Mcdz!

    We ate in, had 20 chicken nuggets, 2 Big Macs, a fillet of fish burger, 3 portions of fries and drinks… Oh and a mcflurry. Having munched down a load of this junk food, we spoke a bit about what was happening tomorrow and bringing back a few memories about how we used to be… Felt good to be the trio again…

    After being all fattened up, Karjun drove me home and I just dived straight into bed…


    Saturday 11th November 2012

    An awesome night!

    My morning began with firing up my Apple Mac Mini and talking on Skype with John talking about what we should do regarding an idea we had. We supposed to have this discussion on Friday but my night was hectic and there was no way I could have spoken about it. We had a good talk and have direction and now I need to just write it into a google document so we can update it in real-time.

    We ended the conversation with what I will be doing later and I was saying how I will be going to a casino with Karjun to just drink and talk for a bit. Then it reminded John of a Simpsons episode and immediately made me click as well! This is the awesome synchronised minds my brothers and I have… As soon we remember something in our childhood, we have that same face where we know what we are about to say!


    Ending this call, I had my lunch as well as watching a few other YouTube videos and then got ready to head out!

    I caught the bus to Karjun’s house to just have a chat and play with his wooden dummy he purchased for his wing chun! Very cool stuff!

    We spoke of how he is doing and what is up in life and it was great to have this chat again. Felt like a life time that we actually sat down to talk like this again. It’s always been a group thing but not just him and I chat so it was good…

    Then we went to Catford Bridge to Mcdz. Don’t worry, we only had a coffee and a hot chocolate…….. And a few nuggets! 
    So we met up with Lyndsey and James (Lyndsey’s mate) and chilled out to talk. When Sean arrived, they had to drive over back to Lyndsey’s house to drop something off so Karjun and I waited back at the station. However, Lyndsey called to say that if the train comes, get on it to meet Kemi (another friend of Lyndsey’s that we’ve met before). So we caught the train to Charing Cross and went to Leicester Square!

    Sitting in the cold and waiting for Kemi, Karjun and I spoke a lot more about what was going on tomorrow and other stuff regarding our lives but not long after, Kemi arrives and not long after that, the rest come over and completing the rest of the members of the group at Trocadero!

    So we all marched to the Montagu Pyke to meet another 2 familiar faces; one being Vinh and the other Shane who I haven’t seen since the DDR / Pump it up phase!! Geez!

    Since that pub was full, we ended up going to Pizza Hut. Vinh and Shane had already eaten so they left.

    Pizza Hut was where we all had a good sit down and spoke properly knowing everyone a little better and had a good laugh. Having 3 large pizzas but fourth one untouched as we didn’t pay for it…

    Later on, Karjun, Kemi and I separated to head to Empire casino whilst the others went to a masquerade club…

    We drank a bit and watched a few people lose at blackjack and the roulette but we ended up jumping on a machine with a virtual interface imitating the roulette and won back quite a bit of money!! We split the money equally and then headed off home!


    SUMMARY OF THE 3 DAYS

    Amazing past 3 days. Experiencing something new and spending time with friends and colleagues is a delight. 

    These nights are worth spending and I don’t regret any of it because I always have a good night!

    Thanks to all of you guys!


    No regrets…. Just look forward….

  • Multitasking…

    Another day…

    It was a very crammed evening and felt all so rushed last night. There was a random call from Lyndsey, sending an invite for Battlefield 3 to Trish and trying to fit some development work all into one day!


    SKYPE/PHONE CALL

    I received a call at 8pm after my dinner from Lyndsey.
    It feels like we haven’t had this kind of conversation for a while. I rather missed it…

    We tried to Skype video chat but that did not work. It’s because she was on the O2 dongle stick picking data very slowly so we decided to keep it as a phone call instead…

    We spoke like old times; not caring about the world, the randomness…
    It wasn’t much though as I was trying to fit my development work into the mix so I was half talking, half coding which is not part of my wheel house. However, I made an exception since lately, I have been putting more effort into my production log and less socialising!

    My friends are worried as I have been quiet for the past few days but I guess I have been distancing myself but not purposely… Surely they understand….

    The call lasted until 10pm since I reached out to Trish and asked if Battlefield was still on… IT WAS! So my goodbyes came out, the press of the end call button happened, followed by the press of the power button on my Xbox and that’s my queue to talk about gaming!


    GAMING

    Trish and I have been putting off gaming for a while now. There were so many excuses such as ‘Xbox live expired and need to renew it’, or ‘my net is not working’ but not last night… It was the time to release stress into the 3D environment…

    Unfortunately, the game was a little bit rubbish. This is all due to the mic issues! Trish was talking but then cut off mid-sentence… The teamwork would have been great but again, the voice was needed! We were not synchronised at all! This is how much we needed the connection to work!

    The game lasted until approximately 11.45pm. That’s a short game as I would usually play longer than that!

    I tried to stay up longer to do some development but my mind was firing blanks so I decided to call the night at 12pm…


    DEVELOPMENT

    In the morning hitting the computer at 7.30am to quickly cram some dev before heading to work.

    I added some JQuery to do some fade in and out animation on several dividers regarding the header banner.

    Since I only had 30 minutes or less, I achieved this goal but just one issue… It seems that one of the images are not being detected in the queue of images specified. Probably something easy but I’ll look more into it tonight…


    SUMMARY

    Gaming, social and development all in one day?! Geez!

    I am completely wiped out as I type this blog post on the train to work… But it is better to do something productive than nothing. All I’ve been trying to do is spend each day and be proud of the way I use it and so far for the past week and a bit, I’ve been successfully doing just that!

    I hope this flow does continue but I will try a little harder to keep in touch with my friends because at the end of the day, they did help me without them even noticing…


    Please understand that I am not distancing myself from you guys… I’m just getting hold of reality again…

  • Nothing but pure development!

    Now that was PRODUCTIVE!

    DEVELOPMENT

    It was just one of those nights where my fingers just felt like typing…

    So I initialised upon Kimzii’s project by laying out the HTML and CSS of the website. I have forgotten how great it feels when I start off from a blank canvas. Lately, my work have been either editing/adapting to someone else’s HTML and CSS!
    Now I have control and know where everything is rather than being clueless and spending hours looking for the right files…

    Kimzii called me over Skype for a chat. It wasn’t much of a chat since I was so into typing out and concerned about keeping the code clean and tidy… We didn’t talk long but we did discuss more business.

    By the end of this night, I made a quick layout; a logo box, navigation bar and the header banner. The reason why I am proud of it is because the code is so clean and I’d like to maintain this standard… I made it so optimised so that I can make an admin panel as well…

    Tonight, I am looking forward to writing out more.

    SUMMARY

    Unfortunately, I did not have time to either play games or be social with my friends since it was a night of development.

    It would have been half games, half development but Trish’s Internet was down so there was going to be Battlefield… I think I need this evening to be 30% development and 70% gaming in the virtual world of shooting other gamers!!

    And now I hear I am all of a sudden going out to drink tonight!

    Well, lets see how I feel later…

    Will I be able to maintain this standard?

  • Family… Social… Development…

    Appreciate my friends… They’ve kept me on my feet since that day…


    FAMILY

    So I get home planning to do some development or play some games but what really was waiting for me was a discussion about business with Tim. We spoke about many things but the highlights of it was the conversation about what’s available in the world today and what we should be building for tomorrow!

    We’ve decided something that may change the communication patterns over the web. 

    Lets see where we get to on that one.


    SKYPE (SOCIAL)

    So there were 3 conversations that took place during the day.

    Firstly, my brother (from Australia) John and I had a development talk regarding ideas we spoke about during my trip in Sydney and decided we will have a meeting over Skype on Friday and see what complications arise for this project.

    My second conversation was with an old friend Kimzii, who happens to want a website template. We discussed what elements will be needed and the themes she likes. I’ll probably just mash up something that looks rubbish but so long the functionality works, it should be fine.
    We also spoke about my progress towards what happened a few months back. She was the first person who gave me advice very early when the wound was wide open and now we speak of it again. As a good friend, she sat and listened to my words and responded what I should try and do (which I’ve done already) so now all I need is patience because now that I’ve told her what I need to, it’s up to her what to decide what she wants until she feels ready to talk again…
    Then we went on to discuss Kimzii’s situations and oh dear me, my dilemma is nothing compared to hers; feels like I’m living in luxury!

    My final conversation was with Lyndsey. We were talking about my last blog post and was feeling a little down but towards the end, she made me realise that although things look tough right now, she will be the friend to turn to no matter what the situation… 

    So from all the advice collected, thank you… 


    DEVELOPMENT

    Have you had one of those days where you feel exhilaration when an epiphany kicks in?

    This morning, I sat down at 7.30 with my croissant and coffee reading some articles written in Wikipedia about real-time data consistency, the need to acquire data from the database in the most efficient way.

    I’ve been thinking too boxed in lately but when I revisited this issue, I had a solution and it definitely beat my last idea since each node kept connecting to the database resulting the server to crash every time.

    All it is was to make a CRON job in the server and schedule to update the database every few minutes and the rest is all up to front-end development…

    Lets put that into code shall we? 

    To be continued…


    SUMMARY

    Projects are flowing, my algorithmic mind is instigating… I’m finally getting somewhere. My motivation is running smoothly!

    Friends and family is all I need for now and they are my priority! And I really do appreciate what I have in my life!


    Diversion is not what I need… I need to move on…

  • The life at home…

    I have a million thoughts in my head so why does my current thought land on the one I least want to think about?!
    DREAM
    So this morning I wake up with a smile… Why? The visual creations developed randomly in my mind completely shocked me by surprise! 
    It was an illustration that brought me back to a life where everything was all so perfect… But now disintegrated into thin air that I cannot piece back together!
    The setting was when we were still together and we bought a house. We were living in the house we always wanted, plain and simple. We were happy; talking, smiling, laughing, closeness… It was the one place I was truly happy.
    The rest of the dream was a blur because that’s how I see our relationship… I wish I could bring it back! But how?
    If YOU are reading this… Please tell me where we are…
    Ok… I’m done… Lets move on…
    GAMING
    So yesterday, I finally pressed the power button on my PS3, signed in to PSN and unwrapped the plastic cover from the game I wanted to play most… Uncharted 3: Drake’s Deception!
    This game is amazing. I haven’t played a good game since Max Payne 3. The climbing, the puzzles, the combat and the storyline, truly something different from what I usually play. 
    I felt a bit of Zelda elements in the game but in a realistic environment… This is probably why I enjoy this kind of game.
    I’m not very far but will keep you posted.
    DVDs
    So I watched 2 DVDs: ‘Due Date’ and ‘Lee Evans: Live at the O2’.
    ‘Due Date’ was an okay comedy and worth watching. I wouldn’t say it was the best but to see the star of Iron Man, Robert Downey Jr. act with the odd but funny actor from The Hangover, Zach Galifianakis was a combination that I would never miss (funny that I missed it at the cinema though)… Overall? I give it a rating 4/5 in my opinion…
    Lee Evans never disappoints me! The amount of laughter that came out of me was too much! Always wonderful to see him perform. Basing upon real life situations into some comical sense is sheer genius!
    Rating on this without a doubt 5/5! I recommend this guy to anyone, ANYDAY!
    SUMMARY
    It has been such a long time since I stayed home and catch up on everything!
    I really enjoyed it…
    I should do this more often to do productive stuff in terms of development and gaming to further myself for the career side of me. I owe it to myself…
    Career… What will I be doing in the next 10 years?!

  • My last 3 days… Progress?


    Thursday 1st November 2012

    Quiet evening…

    So finally I get round to connecting my PS3 but figuring out where to place it in my room was getting me a tad bit agitated! Probably need to invest in a small table or something!
    I didn’t even get to fire it up since I felt so exhausted so I will probably try it out in the weekend… My first game to play is definitely uncharted 3! Been hyping about it for ages!!

    I was supposed to play Xbox however, I had no motivation whatsoever to turn it on… Also, Trish and I arranged to play online but turns out, I got tired and sleepy…
    Friday 2nd November 2012

    Ah yes… Friday, where the weekend started!

    Finishing up work, a few colleagues fancied a quick drink however, we needed to make it a quick one in order to head over to another pub since we arranged a little get together with our last old place… 

    So 1 drink ended up to be 3-4 drinks and since I usually down them too fast, I was already tipsy!
    We spoke about forming a karaoke group… I am definitely up for that! So we should be organising something for the Christmas period..

    So I shot off from one pub to the next with drinks waiting for me there too! Everyone was more or less drinking already since I heard the party started at 5 and we arrived at 7! (We as in me and my colleague)… I also bumped into my boss (we go way back) but it was quite a night to remember. 

    So after that, we were invited to head over to another pub where loud music and a DJ was playing. Since the night was still early for me, I really didn’t mind…
    So we moved on to this other pub and barely anyone were dancing and it felt like my mood disappeared and so I purchased a Jaegermeister to see if it made me feel it but unfortunately, nothing happened. About 5-10 minutes of waiting for something to happen, my colleague and I decide to leave.

    We ended the night with eating at McDonald’s and talking about the 3 pubs we shifted to. 

    As a result, the evening was great but expected to stay out much later than that!! However, I am glad we did go to see the people who we used to work with… Brought back a few memories… Also, the first pub we went to with the colleagues, it definitely brought us closer so all was very well…


    Saturday 3rd November 2012

    This day was all so rushed!

    So from the night before, I was completed tired and not bothered to move on this morning so I text my friend Lyndsey to cancel our outing to fireworks and told her how I was so exhausted…

    An hour later, my mate Karjun calls me and starts to convince me… Long story short, I could not decline anymore since he made some valid points and so I texted Lyndsey to tell her that I’m going and we needed to rush off to buy the tickets before 5pm.

    So I was late (again) since it was just one of those days where I wanted to take my time and get ready. Saw her sitting at the bench looking at her phone (as she always does) and started our journey from there..

    I felt like I went to the gym after all this walking and running from train to train, bus to bus, back and forth… We had no lunch!! We stopped at Starbucks but every food stall we saw, we stared at them and could smell the lovely scents! I felt like I could hallucinate and faint!! Maybe I’m exaggerating but I was pretty sure I was hungry!!

    After buying the tickets and all, we finally sat down to a meal at McDonalds (2 days in a row) and I sat down to eat that Big Mac like there was no tomorrow! But some guy was staring at Lyndsey and she wanted to slap the hell out of that guy! That would have been hilarious!

    So after this amazing meal, we went to Starbucks to wait for Karjun to bring his car around and with my 1% of battery life, Lyndsey took the right piss to charge her phone in front of me saying ‘ohhh! I only have 70%! Give me until 80%!!’ Now I felt like slapping this one!! Proper rubbing in the fact I only had 1%! Pshhh! Lol.
    Eventually, Karjun came and she didn’t read 80% and so I had to live with 1% for a few hours!! Although Karjun had a mobile charger, Lyndsey took it and still wanted to charge it til 85%! That’s right, 5% EXTRA than what she intended to charge it to… Shabby!!

    Enough about the charging story… Point being… My battery died and it was a sad moment for me :(.

    So we went to meet the others and about 10 people turned up altogether and we watched the fireworks… It was alright but for £10?? I think I am better off to go where it does not require an entry fee to see a display like that!!

    The night ended with heading back up to central by car to have dinner subtracting 2 from our group…

    So we ended up eating at china town and half of the table ate the same dish… I didn’t eat much since beer and wine somehow was placed in front of me…

    Downing the 2 drinks, another 2 pulled up! Seemed as though they were just materialising in front of me…

    After the meal, the night ended there with some people wanting to continue the night and others wanting to go. I was one of the individuals who wanted to go home. 

    Overall, the day was fantastic. With certain individuals getting along and meeting new people, it was a great night and I couldn’t ask for more…
    The connection last night and everyone’s energy was definitely worth witnessing and I truly enjoyed myself (excluding spending £10 for the fireworks display)… So thanks Karjun for convincing me to come out… Appreciate it big time!


    SUMMARY ON THE THREE DAYS

    So it turns out I didn’t get to play games for the past 3 days except setting up my PS3 so partly happy about that…
    It has mainly been all about SOCIAL lately and of course it’s vital to have a social life than to stay indoors all the time so I do not regret my actions when it comes down to choosing to go out than playing games…

    But the question still remains… Have I become stronger…?

  • Positive thinking…

    So a new month huh? What’s in store for me this time…?
    SOCIAL
    Last night I swung by Westfield to see Lyndsey to shop and hang out. We went from shop to shop and I was dragging her shopping bags hitting shoppers left, right and centre!!
    We ended up at RED 5 and I went to buy “Addict-a-ball”! 
    After an hour later or so, we sat down to eat some Pho… She ate anyway, I just had iced coffee… Mmmmmmmm… Delicious!
    She started talking about the value of money and how important it is to her..
    It bought me back 6 years of how I once lived my life. There was a person once upon a time who thought the same way. Now it becomes a mere memory… Funny that…
    Finishing up with the food, we went home to find out our train was delayed and ended up waiting up to 30 minutes but we had some jokes and laughter… Pretty awesome stuff!
    MOVIES
    Instead of my usual nights of playing games, I changed my pace and watched a film. Last nights theme was Halloween so why not a horror? So Tim (my brother) and I plug in Grave Encounters…
    This film was a mix of Silent Hill and Blair Witch Project. It held comedy and jumpy moments.
    It was about a crew of individuals who wanted to explore a haunted hospital. At first they walk in brave but they had no clue what they had walked into…
    The film was disturbing since I usually don’t sit down to watch these things but it ended with questions in my head and as I hear, there will be a sequel so maybe they will be answered. Overall? I think it’s definitely worth watching. Felt realistic..
    DEVELOPMENT
    Working more on my Titanium project but creating a base template to develop upon. So I am just setting up all my files in an organised format and entering bits of code to keep it consistent. 
    I guess you can say I am still designing my structure of the program… Early days….
    SUMMARY
    I am keeping this structure of social and gaming sides even. I seem to be doing pretty good this week as I feel as though I have done something productive everyday so far!
    Lets keep this going…!

  • A productive day… IN GAMING!

    Happy Halloween y’all!
    Looks like tonight we’re going to have kids either knocking asking for sweets or egg being thrown on our doorstep… Hmmmmm…
    GAMING
    After a long day of work yesterday, I come home to a text indicating confirmation to fire up my Xbox 360 to play Battlefield 3 but this time with one of my gaming buddies, Trish! Not long after, my brother Tim joined the party and all there was on the mic was singing and screaming however, made the game funnier and exciting; made me start singing to Chris Brown’s Turn up the music or Psy’s Gangnam style! Good times…
    It was so hilarious with all the terrible parking and driving into pillars with either a tank or a car… But our teamwork was awesome! Although the beginning of the game, was slow with the kills, I adjusted and became synchronised with Trish and Tim.
    Again, I died so many times but this time, killed much more than yesterday and I was on top of my team’s leaderboard which was a proud moment for me leading with a score of 12K… Mind you, the opposing team’s leaderboard was very different so I won’t go into specifics…
    After we played Gears of war 3 but didn’t play much of that… Just ended up playing team deathmatch… This game, I ended up falling asleep whilst Tim and Trish were talking over the mic then woke up with Trish saying ‘Ron! You still there? Gone a little quiet’! That was where I decided that I’ll end my gaming evening there.
    With all this multiplayer experience, I didn’t bother with setting up my PS3 to play Uncharted 3! And now today is the release of Assassins Creed 3! I’ll probably go to purchase it after work! (If its not sold out!!) 
    Lets see how I feel tonight…
    SOCIAL
    I spoke to my good friend, Lyndsey, after the games and we spoke about how we missed all the Skype sessions we used to have but now disappeared… Since then, there have been too many issues that we can’t even talk… Missing the laughs and jokes we once had…
    Yesterday, it was one of the days she was herself… It was good…
    Always good to cherish these moments before it goes bad again…
    DEVELOPMENT
    Since last night I slept quite late (1am), I did not do any programming however, I did wake up to do some coding but not as much as I planned to. I sat there with fingers on the keys with Titanium just waiting for me to type, all I did was stare and the brain trying to work it’s magic but the cogs were not turning… Hopefully, I will have better luck in development tonight…
    SUMMARY
    I’m beginning to feel like everything is returning to normal again…
    I always loved gaming but lost my way years ago… I have so much catching up to do!
    I hope I can continue to keep my passion in gaming going as well as keeping my friends close… The social part of my life is also improving and I don’t want to let go of it… 
    I’ve opened new doors that I have always ignored!
    To be fair… I’m so glad everything happened the way it did…
    Discovering myself and trying new things was definitely something I needed to do…
    Thanks to all of you that made this possible!

  • A step in the RIGHT direction

    Welcome back to reality…
    Looks like my motivation to do things for myself is back again!!
    Yesterday, I got home, played games, did some programming and did some research regarding my projects that I’ve put on hold for a very long while!
    Feels like I am finally back to my old self again… I’ve missed it…
    Gaming…
    So I fire up my Xbox 360, jump on Battlefield 3 straight onto the multiplayer servers and into Caspian Border! The amount of times I died was crazy… Not so healthy for my statistics but hey, I stopped playing for a while so there’s a reason for it… Give me a few days and I’ll be flanking them all over again ;).

    I also went out to buy Uncharted 3: Drake’s Deception at GAME on Sunday but haven’t even started that game. And I just remembered that Assassins Creed is out tomorrow so that helps my wallet lose weight! 
    And so saying all this… Game on!!!
    Development
    I didn’t do as much when I sat to do some coding but it was definitely a good start to the week. I feel as though I have done something productive for a Monday evening…

    So I’ve opened up Appcelerator’s Titanium (http://www.appcelerator.com) to do some quick development instead of creating apps from scratch… Good thing about this package is that I can develop using JavaScript! Try it out developers!! I’ve made some test applications in the past but never released any just yet but I will definitely keep you posted…

    Also, I’ve had a look at GameSalad (http://www.gamesalad.com) which is an application that you do not need to code but just drag and drop onto objects to make them animate! This is fantastic for rapid developers so check that out also! I will be developing on these platforms since I have limited time to do these things…

    Conclusion
    I’m hoping this motivation will continue but I would say that the things I’ve been doing such as clubbing, hanging with friends and my trip to Australia, Sydney was definitely a big boost to forget my past and start living the present… I wouldn’t say that I am over what has happened because it is a known fact that the feelings will come and go especially when something reminds me of that person, but there will be a point where I will feel strong and be ready to move on…
    Lets just take it day by day shall we…?